The Subjective Competitions
I am addicted to two competitions – the American’s Next Top Model and the Project Runway. I know they sound silly if you never watched and followed the shows (well, at least it’s better than watching nothingness of other people’s lives in the Big Brother).
Maybe I like competitions. I especially like to see how people act in the competitive environment. Are they bitchy? Do they bring their friends close but enemies even closer (quoted from The God Father)? How do they cope with stress? How do they put up with people they don’t like etc. etc. Oh, it is sooo interesting to see!
The American’s Next Top Model is a bit less sophisticated. Some girls are more primitive. When they are angry, they show it. When they are envious, they bitch it. There is so much animal instinct going on there. While for the Project Runway, it is about designing, skills and creativity. You don’t normally see the bitchiness in the process. It’s individual work. An individual competes with him/herself.
But both of them portray an element of subjectivity. How do you judge that one model is edgier than the others? How do you know this dress is in while the others are trashy? And who the hell are the judges who have the right to dictate one life is in the other is out?!
An American lecturer for my undergrad once said, “Because life is unfair.”
So to be back to the real life, my advice would go - don’t tie yourself so much to a competition (even though you say I’m not competing anyone, but myself). Competitions are not real. Today there is an award, tomorrow may be not. Cheatings, favors, bias are common. You may win today, you may lose tomorrow. But you are you, whether it’s tomorrow or today. Not a single competition can define who you are. It is only you who can judge the level of YOUR performance.
Oh by the way, I almost failed one exam.
Maybe I like competitions. I especially like to see how people act in the competitive environment. Are they bitchy? Do they bring their friends close but enemies even closer (quoted from The God Father)? How do they cope with stress? How do they put up with people they don’t like etc. etc. Oh, it is sooo interesting to see!
The American’s Next Top Model is a bit less sophisticated. Some girls are more primitive. When they are angry, they show it. When they are envious, they bitch it. There is so much animal instinct going on there. While for the Project Runway, it is about designing, skills and creativity. You don’t normally see the bitchiness in the process. It’s individual work. An individual competes with him/herself.
But both of them portray an element of subjectivity. How do you judge that one model is edgier than the others? How do you know this dress is in while the others are trashy? And who the hell are the judges who have the right to dictate one life is in the other is out?!
An American lecturer for my undergrad once said, “Because life is unfair.”
So to be back to the real life, my advice would go - don’t tie yourself so much to a competition (even though you say I’m not competing anyone, but myself). Competitions are not real. Today there is an award, tomorrow may be not. Cheatings, favors, bias are common. You may win today, you may lose tomorrow. But you are you, whether it’s tomorrow or today. Not a single competition can define who you are. It is only you who can judge the level of YOUR performance.
Oh by the way, I almost failed one exam.

